Its been a long long long while since i last posted a new post. So much so that its practically stagnant already. I doubt anyone will see my blog anymore even. Well the reason i haven been blogging much is that nothings much changed since the last time i last blogged and needless to say i haven really "moved on" as many of you would put it to be. And today was one good example, I am on my way home today (as usual) and i was listening to my mp3 (as usual again) when the song I'll never break your heart by the Backstreet Boys played. Its one of my favourite song from my favourite band and i listen to it all the time. But surprisingly this time plenty of memories came flooding back as i listened closely to the lyrics (well most of it anyway but not all are descriptive of what i am gona say). Of cos i suppressed the feelings just by taking deep breathes. I have no idea what triggered the thoughts or what so ever, I have already stopped trying to remember the "incident" and move on. It may have been a month plus since that thing happened but i have no idea just why i haven done so. Part of me says to give up and move on, but the other part is asking me to continue and not give up. Which side should i listen to, what should i do? I hope things will be clearer after more time have passed. For now i guess its the usual then....

Before i leave i shall leave a quote.

"In order to succeed, at times you have to make something from nothing." - Ruth Mickleby - Land.

Oh and if any of you have a twitter account, you can follow me (my user is Becksrulez), i update on there alot more then here. Of course. Ok i am out. Peace.

I may not be the ideal person you wanted but i am just a simple guy who love you. I am not going to let go of you so easily, rather I am going to keep trying (I dun believe miracles can happen without hardwork) but letting you go at the same time (if I see that things have changed between us or you have found someone you like) just to show you how much I care about you. Of course i would never do anything rash or stupid such that it would really affect our friendship and as a result, we cant even be good friends anymore. Thats something which I really wouldnt want happening.

Ps: I am still on the road of recovery so it might take a while (maybe even longer) before I am really back to myself.

Hey all, i am back blogging again. I haven had the greatest of days for the past few days and it almost got worst today. I was working like the usual weekends but it was especially difficult to handle the crowd and more importantly one tough customer today. I have no idea what happened to me because like another day i would have handled the situation in a proper manner and solved it easily. But like i said i have had the greatest of days for the past few days and i am still recovering from an incident which happened to me. So while handling the tough customer with his constant demands today, an invisible force started to come over me and it made my mind blank. I started looking all over the place for answers and help from my colleague. But she didnt do much so i just explained kindly to the person with the words that came to my mind at that moment. It was over after a while but the impact was still on me. After work i went to a Ntuc nearby to buy a bar of chocolates to bite on and i left my work area to a nearby park to calm down. At the park, i realised that my hands were shaking from the ordeal. Man... a customer had embarrassed me infront of a crowd who was in the line behind him to buy the product. But more importantly there was a question of was why couldnt i react accordingly quickly?

I think i have the answer to that, like i mentioned i am still on the recovery road of something which happened to me. Its not something that can be overcomed overnight but i am slowly trying to get over the incident and move on with my life. I have no idea how long it would take the level of emotions in me is still rather high and that could be one of the reasons why i couldnt handle a situation which on any other day i could. But i am glad i hadn't lost a close and best friend of mine. I hope the bonds of our friendship would not be strained because of this incident but instead be stronger. They say that if you really love a person, all you want for that person is happiness. And i totally agree to that. I will slowly let you go but i will always be around to help and give you advice to nudge you in the right directions if you ever need me as good friend.

Now whats left for me to do is to end this post and i hope to blog again someday with something on a brighter note. Seeya all.

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Ok enough of that... moving on...

So whats sup people its be a long long while since i last blogged, lets see close to 3 or a month ago since i last blogged? haha. Well as usuall nothing interesting has happened to me for this pass month. Usual go to school, home, sports, piano and work. Well yea i have to admit work is different each time i start, i get to meet different people who behave different when it comes to "cheap" stuff. You can say that its typical kiasu-ism in Singaporeans. You can tell by the way they want to buy alot of products at one go just because its cheap.

Moving on i had basketball last week on wednesday and again on sunday. Wednesday's run out was rather ok as me and my friends had to wait for about 4 teams before our turn so i guess i didnt really had much run out that day though we did had a few games between ourselves first before other people came. But on Sunday, it was a great run out for me as it helped me to really gauge my fitness since i haven done much jogging or any soccer matches under my belt for the past few weeks. I managed to do some interval training jogging about 8 rounds around three baskeball courts sprinting the length of three basketball combined and jogging the length of one basketball court. I also hit a few shots along with my friend. Napfa's coming real soon for me and i will be looking to do well. HOPEFULLY! haha.

OH i almost left one of the important things that did brighten up my life a little, that was catching Transformers 2: revenge of the fallen, the movie a day after it opened in Cinema. Man it was great and the graphics of the movie was breath taking. I shant say anything more after this afterall not everyone might have watched this movie as its still rather new so i shall not be a spoiler. But it IS a MUST watch! haha. The next up coming movie that i want to catch is Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Its just around the corner. And man i cant wait, after watching the trailer the movie must be really good.

That would be all from me, Ladies and gentlemen we will now begin our landing.. please buckle up your seat belts. Thank you!

HaVe A gReAt dAy ToMoRrOw! =)

Ps: An update H1N1 has hit over a 1000 cases in Singapore already (just as i predicted), I sincerly hope that those people who have symptoms or are sick would take personal responsiblity to take care of themselves and prevent the sickness from spreading to others. This is the only way we can help to prevent a dangerous spread of H1N1! =)

Testing testing one two three, hello can anyone hear me? Its ok if you cant hear me because i am not shouting or anything. haha.

Ok moving on..

Nothing much has happened since i last blog till now. Just that the last Thursday i went to play badminton and jogged 2km along the way as well after my Fyp. I met up with my attachment friends who i got to know while i was attached to Lonza. They are all from school of engineering in NYP. We played from 6pm to about 9pm. Some of us went jogging in between. Those who went jogging wanted to train for their upcoming napha which would be next week. Mine is on the 21st july so i have a month plus to train. haha. After the badminton some of us stayed to have dinner before heading home. The next few days including today, my legs felt really sore (i think i overworked my thighs they hurt everytime i walk up the stairs or down). OH i forgot to mention as well that i have been sick for more than a week now. Its nothing much just coughing and flu. If anyone of you think its H1N1, i hope its not otherwise i would have spread to you guys already. haha.

As for today, I had my usual piano and soccer match with my team. I am quite dissappointed with the scoreline today. We were leading 3-0 before we lost the lead and conceded 3 goals in the row to end the game in a draw. I am really surprised at the scoreline, my team was dominant but it was a totally different story when the second half started. I admit that one of the goals was my fault, i didnt quite get back in time to put off the attacker in his shot. I was playing at right back today. There are alot learning points that we can learn today. Yes we didnt have our best squad today as it was a last minute match (literally last minute, i only knew of it this morning), but that shouldnt really be a big factor as all of us should have gave our best and looking at our lead we could have gone on and win with more goals. Anyways hopefully we will improve in our next game.

OK enough about soccer, after soccer i went with my brother to work as usual to help him out. We cleared the stocks early as usual (again) and we left for home to prepare to head out for dinner with our grands. When i finally got home it was already 103opm. So I settled down and here i am doing up this post.

Thats about all from me. HaVe a Great week ahead folks! =)

Ladies and gentlemen... introducing the one..... the only..................... the boy with many special abilities!!!!!

Wouldnt you want to have special abilities? I wouldnt call them freaky or anything, come on wouldnt you like to escape the peak hours of train ride or bus ride if you could just teleport?? Or be invisible once in a while so you can dissappear from everyones sight for a while and enjoy the peace? Think about it... haha. I for one would like to have such abilities anyone would be nice.

Moving on...

These two weeks have been quite enjoyable for me, For one, two weeks ago, i ended my last week of attachment on a sad but rather enjoyable mood as for the last week there was nothing much me and my friends could do as it takes one week to process any documents that we do. On the last day, we went out to Sakura at somerset to have a farewell dinner with some of our collegues we had alot of fun just chit chatting and taking pictures. Although its abit saddening to leave the company after we are so familiar to the environment, i am glad that i dun have to wake up so early and travel the long distance everyday. After dinner, most of the people who went left for home while some of us including me stay for a while more, we went to a bar nearby to have abit of drink vodka and chat abit more, i drank abit not enough to get me drunk. We took a few more pictures before me and my friend bade our farewells and departed for home first.

As for that weekend, it was pretty busy for me as my brother held his birthday party at our house and i had to help to pack up my house and on the day of the party (Sunday), i helped to entertain our relatives and his friends before leaving the party early to work on my brothers behalf. The work was rather exciting but boring as well. I ended off work at about 8 and headed home to help to clear up the mess before finally settling down to rest.

For this past week, I was finally back in school doing my final year project (FYP) but so far i am only learning the basics and not really started on anything yet as the basics are vital. So i pretty much had nothing to do for the whole week except to help my friends who were already in school doing their projects. On Tuesday, i went out with my brother and his friend to celebrate his actual birthday and we watched night and the museum 2. It was a nice movie, my brother and his friend had actually catched an earlier movie before i met up with them. On friday i had the usual astro stargazing in school.

For the weekends however it was rather exciting, on saturday i had piano and a soccer match (finally after like a month plus) with Falcon. We won 3-0 in what was Jun yi's last match before he enlists fo NS on June 11. After the match, i went to help my brother in his work again but this time he was around as well, we cleared the product we were suppose to promote and "sell" early in about 45minutes much to our surprise. We had 100 of them. And at night, my brothers friend dropped by to stay overnight and they played games till about 4am before we all slept. We woke up around 12 to 1pm and carried on playing until about 5pm before we left for my brothers work and one of our friends left for home. We ended up finishing up on the product we were "selling" withing half and hour which was a newer record. I think the record would be broken again the following week with a new product. After the work, we had dinner at Carls junior at tampines T1 the newly opened shopping mall.

And so here i am now doing up this blog after i have reached home and just finished a game with my brother and his friend. We lost the game and my brother's friend left for home as its getting late. Thats about all from me, do check back to this blog once in a while as i might pop up with a blog post. Who knows? ahaha.

HaVe a NiCe WeEk people!

Good evening ladies and gentlemen... this is your blogger speaking....

Its been a week plus since i have last blogged but here i am back blogging. Last week was a pretty fun but expensive one. On Tuesday i had to go out to celebrate my attachment friend's birthday along with the rest of my attachment friends. We went to eat at New York New York. We chatted and had alot of laughs. I ended up home at around 11pm plus. It was great fun as we talked about anything under the sun. On Thursday we went out to play badminton at outram. I brought along a few of my rackets and the net. We played until 9plus and i reached home around 10. I got to gain some well needed exercise as i wasnt going to have soccer the following Saturday and we all had great fun. And on Friday, i had to go out to celebrate my classmate's birthday at Dhoby Gaut. We had Fish and Co at the glasshouse. We chatted for a while before walking towards city hall via Fort canning park. It took quite an amount of time but we had fun chatting and joking along the way. We even found out some secrets of Singapore, there were plenty of museums which lead us to plan more outings to visit such places. I ended up reaching home over 12am. This weekdays especially Tuesday and Friday has really cost me but i had alot of fun. Which outings are never fun when you have friends around and you can catch up with the latest news and updates.

Moving on to the weekends. On Saturday mornings are pretty much the same ( you should know why) but in the evening i went to sentosa with my brother's friends all of whom i know. We played abit of soccer, had dinner and played pictionary ( a game where someone draws and you have to guess the word from it). Pictionary was the highlight as we had fun guessing and everyone was shouting out the word. That really got everyone hyped up. Unfortunately when it came to change game, some of us including my brother and me had to leave. I reached home around close to 11. For Sunday, i stayed at home for almost the whole day leaving only for lunch and in the evening for abit of basketball plus street soccer at the ITE college near my house. My brother and me bought a brand new basketball from sportslink so we decided to try it out at the ITE shooting some hoops (i am still working on my shooting). We also joined in a bunch of people playing street soccer there for a while, i scored a few goals. haha.

Thats all for my past week.

For this week up till today, nothing much has happened at work as everything is pretty much the usual though i had to work overtime for 1 hour yesterday just to finish some filing for the next few days of auditing going on in the company. Hopefully my week will be better with a astro orientation camp coming up on friday and ending on sunday though i will only be helping on Saturday leading to Sunday.

Thats all from me then, have a great remaining few days of the week ahead people! :)

OH BEFORE I FORGET, I have finally got the approval to take leave on next Thursday!! This means i can watch the Champions League final between Manchester United and Barcelona. (Manchester United will win!) and relax for the remaining day before going back to work on Friday which happens my last day there (cant believe 3 months passed so quickly) before going back school to start my final year project. I am so look forward to next Thursday and Friday!! Seeya!